#i have always loved this song ngl i wish i could have produced something better

[jokerislandgirl32]

Karma’s A B*tch…

So I heard the news surrounding the JoJo version of this song and this version, and I had to listen to both and watch the videos (bit traumatized by JoJo’s ngl… she’s literally looked like Pennywise at one point and he freaks me out, so yeah…).

I am personally crazy about Brit’s version, and the music video for this version fits the lyrics perfectly! So, it made me think about Zach and Violet (of course, lol)! And even though they don’t “cheat” on each other, there are undertones of infidelity in their relationship prior to them getting together because they both pursue other relationships while in love with each other. If that makes sense.

So, I see this as a Zach song because he regrets what he does to Violet, but after finding out she’s dating too he becomes jealous and hopes karma will seek revenge on her. But Zach’s spiteful wish does not play out as he hoped…Violet’s hurt in the process, in ways he never imagined.

See below cut for some fic clips, connections to the song. Please note that there are mentions of infidelity (kind of?), cursing, implied abuse, ill wishes, mentions of alcohol consumption and drunkenness, and implied illness.

“Another late night, another crazy mood And I didn't think twice what it would do to you I was a wild child, you always knew it It was a matter of time before I blew it…”

I stood slumped in the doorway to my hotel room looking at Gourmand with annoyance, he stood in front of me holding something behind his back, “what do you want?”

Gourmand shuffled his feet and produced a tea service tray, “I-I know you left sick…I thought some peppermint tea might help.”

I raised an eyebrow at him, grimacing at the mention of sickness that had landed me under the table and in my room for the entire evening, unknown to him or anyone else in attendance I hadn’t just eaten too many clams…I was so drunk I felt like I’d pass out at any moment, but I wasn’t drunk enough to not know he hadn’t just come to my room to give me tea, “oh yeah? You care about me? You wanna make sure I’m okay, ha! If I didn’t know better I’d say you have a crush on me!”

Gourmand’s eyes met mine, a serious expression on his face, “I do…”

I felt my jaw drop. All I had been thinking about that day was Violet. So much so I’d tried to drink her memory away… and it hadn’t helped, but this…this opportunity…it wasn’t one I could pass up. Maybe I couldn’t drink her memory away, but replacing the relationship I so desired with Violet, for one with Gourmand instead…wasn’t such a bad option.

“Why don’t you come on in,” I purred, giving him my most charming smile.

Karma's a bitch, I should've known better If I had a wish, I would've never messed around When I saw the pics of you with HIM, I felt the knife twist Karma's a bitch, and HE’S with you right now

I growled as I saw the social media post sent to me from one of Violet’s old schoolmates, Iris. Violet was in bed with another man! That creep Travis who’d tried to hurt her the night I kissed her, the night she let it slip she loved me, the night I fell for her! She was with him and not with me!

How could she do this to me?!? Sure, I’d been with Gourmand, sure I’d stopped any romantic advances toward her, but I loved her! I wanted her! She was meant to be with me, not a creep like him! Well, I decided, she can have him, she can do whatever she wants. I don’t need her! And she’ll get…she’ll get what’s coming to her.

“And when I lay me down to sleep, it's not your body next to me This lonely room feels so empty, just me and my regrets…”

I lay in bed staring at a picture of Violet and me together from her high school graduation, she looked so happy, vibrant, beautiful. My hand had been resting on her stomach, I’d started tickling her to get her to laugh for the picture and she’d placed her hand over mine to stop me…then her aunt had snapped the photo…it looked like we were a couple.

I turned over trying to get her off my mind: she was with Travis, I’d just broken up with Gourmand, all of this was my fault. At that moment my cellphone rang, I usually would have ignored it at such an hour, but the number said it was coming from North Carolina and that piqued my interest. Violet was in North Carolina, maybe she’d gotten a new number?

I answered the phone trying to keep my voice steady, but it broke from my anticipation, “H-Hello?”

“Zach?” It wasn’t Violet’s voice that greeted me, but that of her cousin Paige.

“PAIGE?” I shouted, jolting up in bed, “why are you calling me now? Do you realize what time it is?!?!”

Paige sounded different, not her usual sassy and sarcastic self, it sounded like she’d been crying, “I’m sorry Zach, but it’s Violet…something is wrong, she won’t talk to me…It’s that boyfriend of hers…”

She paused sniffling, “I know…I know Iris sent you the picture, and I know you are mad and you haven’t been talking to her, but it’s not what it looks like…look at it again…At her back and arms…the scratches…Violet’s being…I think he’s hurting her…Zach, please come down here, she’ll listen to you, she’ll talk to you. Please help her….”

My mouth went dry, I shakily opened the pictures app on my phone and look at the picture I’d cursed at every day since I got it…Paige was right…something was very wrong…and before I broke down in tears of my own I choked out, “I’ll be there tomorrow, we can talk about it more…let me know where to meet you,” before I disconnected the call.

An anguished sob left my throat, “THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!”

Picrew Used

I know this is a lot to take in, but I hope you all enjoyed it! I’m really trying to flesh out Ziolet’s story, and posts like this are part of that process!

[twilishark]

It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen. In your head [...] In your head, in your head they are dyin' [...]  What's in your head, in your head? Zombie, zombie, zombie

[mackeydoodledoo]

Heart Flutter

Part 1 of the “Not So Cold After All” Series!

Pairing: Jade Thirlwall x (Fem!)Reader

Summary: You were a very caring child, no matter how many times mean kids would try and discourage you. However, there was one in particular girl that caught your eye; Jade Thirlwall, she'd always drive your bullies away, but would always act sour around you. However, years, many years go by and you practically forget about your “Barely Notices You” crush however, your paths cross again, when you realize you are Little Mixs' touring bassist, seeing Jade for the first time in years, resurfacing some unspoken love.

Warnings: Angst(?)

A/N: This is in 1st person, Bold = Thoughts, Italics = Singing

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As I tune up my bass guitar I begin warming up with some scales; my met in my earbuds. I watch as my best friend; who's the keyboardist as well. The both of us are in a band; which we formed while we were drunk. Us two have been personally asked by Little mixs' producers, as us two have been performing gigs and getting a lot of good reviews from whomever sees us in concert. However, this is the first time we've been on tour. 

"This is a first," I chuckle, as I finish warming up 

"Now Y/N, when Little Mix comes on stage, you have to remember er to pick your jaw up off the floor-" 

I punch Laura's shoulder and walk away. Being lesbian sure sucks often.. because unlike me, I see a pretty girl or woman.. I gawk. My lesbian shows. 

"I hate you sometimes," I say 

Currently, our band is a duo. We were unsuccessful finding a drummer and a guitarist. But we're surprised that we made it work with a keyboardist and a bassist. However, we mostly did gigs for a living. We have tik tok and instagram. I mann Instagram while Laura manns the tik tok. We have posted some covers, bass line covers and keyboard covers. However most of the time, Laura is the lead whilst I back vocal or even don't vocal at all. I'm still trying to learn how to sing and play instruments at the same time. 

"Who'da thunk a duo band would end up becoming apart of a live band for Little Mix?" Laura asks 

"Not me," I laugh, blowing raspberries, "Thank god the song 'Black Magic' was on my sister's playlist. Otherwise we wouldn't be here." 

I begin playing the Black Magic Bass line by memory. It was difficult figuring this song out because there were no tabs for it until I had to listen to a cover that played the same song. For as long as I needed to I had managed to memorize it. But looking over the written tabs I did for a refresher. 

Full of Honey Just to make him sweet Crystal balling Just to help him see What he's been missing  So come and get it- 

I hear a voice that finished out the verse before the Chorus. I stop playing and look up. I feel my eyes widen slightly as I lay eyes on a familiar face. 

"J-Jade?" I call out 

"Y/N?" She calls out, "Is it really you?" 

"It’s me," I smile, gently swinging my Bass around behind me so I could give Jade a hug 

The hug is a lot more firm the last time I remember. But I felt that I did the same. 

"I'm glad you're here," she says, "We have so much to catch up on." 

My heart skipped a beat I swear... 

Wait.... She was never this enthused to see me. Why is she bringing it all back up now? 

"Y-Yeah," I smile 

She walks away to go back into rehearsal with her girls and I begin doing my own warm up. 

I pack up my bass for the evening to begin heading out to Ireland for the first part of the tour. 

"Y/N," a voice calls out 

I swing my bass case around my shoulders and smile, "Hey Jade." 

"Look," she begins, "I know where we left off all that time ago-" 

"It’s alright Jade," I interject, "I'm over it really. Besides, I think this suits you well." 

"I know it's just," she says, "I never thought about the whole thing until I saw you earlier. For the first time in years and-" 

I gently tug on Jade's arm and wrap my arms around her. Instinctively rubbing my thumb gently on the small of her back. 

"Lets leave it at this-," I suggest 

Jade pulls away to look at me, not letting me finish the rest of the sentence. 

"For now," I add, "Once the whole tour goes over, maybe.... Before Laura and I go back to the states, we could get dinner... Talk about life.... You know." 

"I'd like that love," Jade says, "I'd like that a lot." 

There goes Jade again... Calling me "love". It had always made my heart flutter. Then it would go all to my stomach and it'd ache from the giddy feeling of being in her presence. I remember when she would call me that when she finds me alone at the playground. But then when I felt better she would go back to her other friends. However, it didn't phase my little kid self as I knew she was doing it to make me feel better. 

When Laura and I haul our instruments onto the carrier for cargo, a handful of fans try to get pictures, autographs of sorts with the girls of Little mIx, giving little attention to us. However, we were fine with that. Jax, Becca, Laura and I were okay sticking into the shadows. However, we waited on the other side of the gate to wait for them. 

"Ngl I wish we could at least been asked to get in a picture," Jax pouts 

"And be in that chaos?" Becca asks, laughing 

When I look back over, Jade was the last to enter the gate to our flight and I notice in time she tripped over somebody's foot and I instinctively dove down to catch her. I catch her a few inches from her face making contact with the ground. I help her gain her bearings and through the gate. 

"You alright there?" I ask, brushing off dust from her hip line 

"Yeah," she answers, "Thanks love." 

I stop brushing her down and look up at her. I smile gently at Jade and rise back up slowly, to avoid being lightheaded. Jade and I walk back to everyone else and follow them towards the terminal gate. I notice Jade clinging onto me like a Koala clinging onto a tree branch. 

"Jade," I ask 

"Hmm?" She asks 

"You alright? You're hanging onto my arm kinda tight there. Like I'm almost going to fall if you yank even further." I say 

She smiles but reluctantly lets go of my arm. However, our fingers are coiled together. I notice Jade hunching her shoulders. I regretfully uncoil my fingers and take off my leather jacket and put it around her. I coil my fingers again and smile as she looks at me, as if I kissed her. 

"Thanks Y/N," Jade smiles 

"Always," I smile, us two catching up with the rest of the girls 

"Aren't you cold though Y/N?" She asks 

"Actually," I start, "My body temperature runs warmer than the average. So I was pretty sweaty not a minute ago." 

"Wish that could be me," Jade sighs 

We get onto the flight however, Jade and I pay ways as she seats herself next to Leigh-Anne. I sit next to Laura and immediately put in my headphones to help zone out. I look out the window as the plane takes off into the night. As I begin getting lost in my music, I didn't even feel Laura tap on my shoulder until she punches it, dragging me back into reality.

“Ow what?!” I ask

Laura points over to Jade right across the isle and she smiles and waves at me. I do the same.

“Can I sit next to you love?” she asks

Laura nods as she and Jade switch spots. I smile as Laura smirks at me. Jade leans over and looks onto my phone.

“What are you listening to?” she asks

“A band called ‘Crimson Apple’,” I say, “Want to listen with me?”

She happily nods as I give her the left earbud, “I’m currently listening to one of their songs called ‘Shower’.”

She nods as she slowly leans onto my shoulder. All the while Colby Benson’s voice is serenading the both of us. I gently lean my head on hers as I close my eyes. 

When I open my eyes again, I feel an arm wrapped around me. I straighten myself out and look up to see Jade.

“Well good morning sleepyhead,” She smiles, “We’re about to land.”

“How long was I asleep?” I ask

“Only an hour,” She answers, “You’re a real heavy sleeper.”

“Well, in this case I didn;t was anyone to slap my face to wake me up,” I say

As the plane lands I swing my backpack; that had been laying on the floor the entire time around my back and wait for Jade to grab whatever she had brought onto the flight. 

 As we exit the plane and make our way toward the exit, Jade’s fingers coil around mine. Smiling, but not having her know I was happy, I tighten the grip gently. Letting her know I’m okay with her holding my hand. As we reach the exit, there were fans already near the cab we were taking to the hotel. As much as I respect the fans, I absolutely dislike it when they crowd around us. Especially the girls. However, there were security personnel there to help all of us get to the cab easy.

“Are you dating the live band bassist Jade?” a fan asks

I turn to the direction of the sound however, Jade tugs at my arm, to which now I’m in front of her. I sigh and look back into the direction of the fan who asked.

“That’s for us to know and for all of you lot to never find out,” I answer back, smiling smuggish, then drag Jade into the cab

“Did you actually mean to begin talking in an english accent when you said that?” Jade asks

“What” I ask

“When you answered the fans you spoke in an english accent,” Jade laughs, “How did you not notice?”

Everyone began laughing and agreeing with Jade. Laura teases me at how I did even notice I began talking in an english accent.

“But I’m going to be honest that was really good though,” Perrie states

“Really?” I ask, “It’s not very perfect because I still can’t pronounce words very well when I talk like this. But, It’s there. It’s something.”

I laugh as Jesy begins cackling. Of all things I could love about Jesy, It’d be her laugh. 

 When we arrive to the hotel, we only had little time to wind down and even remotely change clothes as we had a show tomorrow night. 

“No rest for the wicked,” I smile, swinging my case around

“Not for us Explorers,” Laura smiles

We catch up to the rest of the band and Little Mix as we again head off into the city to head to the arena for rehearsal.

As we finish out rehearsal for tonight, Jesy, Jade, Perrie and Leigh-Anne turn to us. I look at Jade, as if I was going to hear the biggest spoiler of a lifetime.

“We want to hear you guys individually play a song for us,” Jesy announces, “We want to see your skills individually.”

My eyes widen… I’m not even a great bassist… How tf am I gonna impress all four of these girls? The girls were doubtful when they noticed me looking like I saw a ghost. Laura stands in front of me, “Yo this could be your chance to show Jade your bass skills!”

“Knowing people are watching?” I ask, “How am I gonna do this?!”

“Pretend they’re not there,” Laura demands, “Pretend it’s just you, the spotlight and your bass. Basically let the music take your soul and perform with that!”

I inhale and exhale and nod. Jade suggested I go last for reasons unknown however, Becca, Laura and Jax didn’t mind at all. 

Anxiety runs its course, I stretch out my wrists excessively, I play the song I’m planning to play; Planetary (GO!) By My Chemical Romance. Their bass lines are awesome to play, this bass line being my favorite. It's difficult but it's fun. 

"Hey you," Jade comes up to me, "You doing alright?"

"Y-yeah I'm alright Jade," I say, "I've only been a bassist for a couple of years and I'm in front of professionals."

"Oh love," Jade starts, "It's gonna be okay. You're gonna do great. I promise you."

I inhale and exhale and watch Jax finish up her set; hearing her play the last couple of notes. As I walk out onto the stage, Jax pats my shoulder as she passes by me. Jade goes out into the audience to sit next to her girls to watch me. I hook up my phone to record my run onto one of the amps  and then walk towards the microphone.

"So this bass line was one of the most difficult ones to learn," I start, "However, it was also really fun to play so I'm going to showcase that same one here tonight."

I motion for the sound audio people to start the song I talked over with the sound audio team and for a second, the tour manager and Little Mix were caught off guard with the siren sound in the intro. As the first verse plays I just do some eighth notes; simple however, when it gets to the pre-chorus, I begin jamming out; every note I rung out, I “overdo it” and head bang into the notes. I hear Jade cheer as I play sixteenth on the 12th fret on the A string (the second lowest string on a 4-string bass).

 As I play the chorus I begin to jump around and headbang as I play it. I make eye contact with Jade and lean down to play to her. I watch her as she begins acting like my biggest fan. I was okay with that. 

 As I play the last two notes on my part to the song. I feel sweat run down the side of my head as I look over and Jade is running over to me. With only a split second to swing my bass around, she immediately jumps into my arms.

“Bloody hell Y/N!” she yells, “You were amazing!”

As she pulls away, our faces stay inches away from each others’ and we smile at each other. She looks so beautiful Holy sh*t… 

“I knew we chose a great bass player,” Jade smiles

Perrie, Jesy and Leigh-Anne agree. I look to Jax, Becca and Laura and they give me a thumbs up. This is going to be the coolest tour ever.

Part 2

[ryttu3k]

Nearly time for the grand finals! Here are my first impressions on the finalists, in run order, from the semi-finals and previews (for the Big Five/Ukraine).

Warning: sleep deprivation + Opinions.

10/12: Romania 8/12: Israel, Belarus, Austria, Armenia, Moldova, Hungary, Azerbaijan, Croatia, Greece 7/12: Poland, Netherlands, Denmark, Australia, Bulgaria 6/12: Cyprus 5/12: Portugal, Sweden 4/12: Norway, Belgium

Israel: He’s trying - to finish the semis with some energy, so that’s a plus, at least! And fire, that’s always fun! Nice and energetic, good dance beat, staging is a bit busy but at least it’s not bland! 8/12

Poland: Haha from the camera angle there it looks like she just farted out birds.

...I’m really tired it’s nearly 6 AM and I’ve been awake for two hours and they’re almost all ballads I’m sorry but why this. At least Poland has some volume!

Anyway, 7/12

Belarus: Oh that is a hella Princess Serenity outfit, get that moon back! Aww hell yeah not singing in English! Good. This is really fun and cute! 8/12

Austria: Time for my grandmother’s birth country! Oh this is… whimsical! Very Dreamworks. This is cute! Bit more energetic than most of the first semis. Like it’s probably not my usual taste in music but I’m going to give it a high score just for not being another mopey-af slow ballad. 8/12

Armenia: Please don’t be another ballad. Okay good this one a least looks more interesting. She and Montenegro probably got together to share hair care tips. Not quite sure what’s going on but at least it looks cooler than most of the stand-there-in-front-of-a-screen-with-clipart-in-a-dress ballad crap. Oh, there it goes! Much better, just wish that tone shift had happened a bit earlier! 8/12

Netherlands: They’re so sparkly! It has this majorly 90s vibe but I’m still kind of digging it. 7/12

Moldova: Sunstroke Project, I remember them!! DON’T DISAPPOINT ME, MOLDOVA. And the sax is back!! I’m not actually a huge fan of the song itself l-lmfao but at least it’s energetic! Oh hey those skirt changes. lmfao the mics are in the bouquets. 8/12

Hungary: Instant points for not singing in English! Oh I do like the staging, it’s like folk but sparkly. And now rap, that was a bit of a tone shift, haha. The violin is fun, the costuming is definitely different, it’s got energy! 8/12

Italy: ??????? ?? …Oh hey. Oh hey I actually like this.

Denmark: She’s Australian so if she does better than Isaiah, I’m claiming her anyway ;D Honestly not sure what commentary to give here, it’s kind of power ballad and, well, a bit dull after Hungary - oh, there’s some pyros, that might help - but it’s also quite listenable? I don’t know, it’s not bad! 7/12

Portugal: Aaaand we’re back to slow. 5/12

Azerbaijan: Okay that is very cool stagi– horse head. Thank fuck, something weird. And it’s not super slow and soporific, too! I love this it’s so weirdass. 8/12

Croatia: Is that half tux, half leather jacket? Not sure about the speech - whoa he’s doing a duet with himself. Giant face in the background I - Is he meant to be his own friend? Oh I like the strings! This is so confusing and weird. 8/12

Australia: Oh dear, it’s a slow one, heh. Sweetheart the giant photos of your face, no. Pretty voice but that high note was a bit awkward as hell - okay, yes, see, it’s much more natural without the weird treadmill, move around more naturally! I really wish I could like this more, but it’s just… subdued. 7/12

Greece: Oh FINALLY some energy! I like the thing with the dancers and the water - oh, some, artistic nudity - obligatory wind machine! Much more Eurovision! 8/12

Spain: Okay, it’s a bit different! Staging and costuming is fun. Looks like he and Isaiah have the same hairdresser.

Norway: Daft Punk, gimp mask edition. Ow OW the glitch effects no why. Chanting ‘kill’ in Eurovision, you’re so not Love Love Peace Peace, dude. And then a really weird tone shift. Uhh. Weird but not necessarily the good kind of weird. Romania? That was good weird. This is just ow-my-eyes weird. 4/12

United Kingdom: Oh criminy another ballad.

Cyprus: I’m so tired even when they’re trying really hard I can’t seem to wake up there’s so many ballads even this one is ballady even if it’s not a straight-out ballad wake me up (wake me up inside). 6/12

Romania: I’m either gonna love this or loathe this. …Oh my god I’m so confused. Oh my god. Okay um. 10/12 for confusing the shit out of me and properly Bringing The Weird!

Germany: Tol! Song is, alas, bit too ballady, though.

Ukraine: How progressive, bashing social media. …Oh hey, some rocking! …Yeah, I have no idea, I’ll have to wait and see the whole thing, haha.

Belgium: I think I had a microsleep. Please actually smile, singer, you’re in Eurovision, not a funeral. 4/12

Sweden: The background is hella synthwave but the treadmills are a bit silly and the song itself is kinda - boring. Sorry, Sweden. Guess you didn’t want to host again, huh? 5/12

Bulgaria: Another actual baby! (I just have this image of all the contestants going bar-hopping and he and Isaiah are just like. Sitting at the kids table, haha.) Very nice and well-produced, just a bit too slow. Still, well done to the kiddo! 7/12

France: Not bad, although ngl, her outfit is less Eurovision and more going out on Saturday night?